110504(aka expression)- i wish i was more articulate about things sometimes, i wish i could express the thoughts in my head clearly to people. hmm..i'm suppose to be an english person and yet i can't talk to people. very interesting...what sucks even more is that i can't even be creative enough to express myself in other ways.i write. i don't write anything that requires talent(because as most of you have seen that ends up producing crap). i write what i'm thinking. its not that hard. writing something down doesnt make anything better though. there is no feedback or support from writing something down. only expression. maybe expression is empty all by itself. maybe i should learn to interact with these strange creatures called human beings.maybe i should learn to trust. maybe i shouldn't ever get my hopes up for anything good. it seems everytime i have some hope or some plan for something good another thing gets in the way, leaving me disappointed. i must remember that for every "sorrow" in my life two things are true: 1) someone out there has it way worse than i do and 2) there is some sort of happiness out there waiting. ......i don't know where this rant came from(so no one leave a comment asking me whats wrong) but i'm glad it came.

- posted by me @ 6:11 PM